simplicity

It seems every weekend I pick a new purification project. Last weekend it was my closet, today I am doing the rest. It is amazing how much stuff one can accumulate. Some people use 'stuff' to fill every nook and cranny, perhaps keeping them company so that they don't feel lonely. Some are just unbalanced, and use 'stuff' as a way to fill the hole inside of them that of course, will never be filled in that way. I actually don't have very much 'stuff' anymore, but even what I have feels like too much and so I am pairing away and becoming light. Everything around me should be a direct reflection of me, the current me, the true me, the real me. I need space and air to breathe in order to create. Empty the cup so I can fill it up with new inspirations and fill my world with beauty *and* usefulness. I think it is so important to be very conscious of your world... to live deliberately! So I arranged an art space and lined up my paints, cleaned out my brushes, lined up blank canvases white with possibilities. I spray painted an ugly old shelf gold to fill with my essential oils and empty blue glass bottles ready for making blends. Making sacred space and giving respect for the things that give me joy, it felt very simple but the symbolism profound.

(this is a pic of a spa i thought was amazing! my laptop is filled with random pics of inspiration. Love the air and light here and of course the plants.)

floral consciousness & ancient greece

It's so hard to believe that I only have 2 1/2 months of massage school left! Time has gone by so quickly, it seems more so than usual and it leaves me a little breathless at times. I have begun my outside massages and it has been very good so far. As I am working, I feel peaceful inside, I feel my hands turn hot with energy. I go into another consciousness as I let my hands move over the muscles, intuitively stopping at certain points, coaxing the stuck energy out. I love being a bodyworker, I have this feeling that all is right when I'm working. It feels sacred, I feel like this is secretly temple work. This is my way to be an old soul, a priestess working amongst the people and get 'away' with it without having to succumb to a more structured, capitalistic work life. I pretty much always use lavender or other aromatherapy oils and I find it heightens the massage so much more. I knew flowers and plants are to have a major part of my future, I had a dream last summer of standing in a field of tall purple flowers blooming, and they were just clustered with honeybees! There were so many honeybees I didn't know if I should even move for fear of stepping on one. I didn't shreek and freak out like I probably would in real life (well, maybe not honeybees...) I just stood very still and marveled. The dream has every marking of the Goddess, I took it as a sign I'm being protected and blessed. I'm greatful for that! There are still uncertainties but I'm trying to be better about being ok with the unknown. You just have to be, in order to survive.

I have been continuing my love affair with all things Greek. I wish I was going with my friend to Greece this summer but the timing isn't right just yet. It will happen though, I know it. To swim in the teal-clear sea and take pictures of crazy sea creatures! A parallel is occuring, it's been going on for about a year now. My body feels best with the (vegetarian version) of the Mediterranean diet. I didn't do this on purpose actually, I just noticed what I had been craving fell in line with it. Fresh fruits, veggies, feta, olives, figs, whole grain break dipped in olive oil and herbs, greek style yogurt, a glass of red wine in the evening.... I dress in simple flowing styles and greek sandals... pretty much always. I don't feel comfortable in anything else! I had a lady stop me in the laundromat a few months ago and ask me if I was from NY. I said no, why? She said you have a NY style! I should have corrected her and said no, I have an ancient greek style. ;)

(pic isn't me, I just like it.)