Life stuff and Yacon spirit cookies

I broke up with coffee.  We just weren't working anymore.  As of this weekend I have officially moved on in my life!  Though I'm having a rebound affair with Yerba Mate... oh I've flirted with him in the past, it's just that he is helping me quite a bit to not miss or think about You Know Who anymore!  I'm also strictly off sugar.  I already have a pretty strict avoidance policy but for now this is also extending to honey, maple syrup and even agave.  I used something called Yacon syrup in cookies I made with millet flour that came out delicious.  Yacon is really cool. It's a root from Peru that tastes sweet yet has no sugar.  Plus it's fun to say.  I told a friend of mine I made Yacon sweetened millet seed cookies and she about died with laughter. Yeah... fine...go on and laugh! Actually I was laughing the whole time I was making them.  I fully realize what a weirdo I am. ;)  Ok, so as I was saying, sugar hates me big time.  This past week my hypoglycemia was out of control.  It's always been somewhat of an issue but lately it's become a really big issue, hence me breaking up with coffee and all things sweet.  I've also let go of the goal of someday being 100% raw food.  Emphasis on raw with Mediterranean works best for my body. I'm cool with that, going to let expectations and guilt go, for good. I've been experimenting with whole grains -millet, amaranth, black rice, wild rice, etc. more and I've found whole grains plus beans make me feel like I can function again.  Amino acid combinations, and all that.

I've fallen back in love with clothing and style again.  This past year I went extremely simplistic in terms of style because I didn't feel inspired, quite honestly.  The only thing that stoked the fires of inspiration somewhat was the fashions of ancient Greece. But most of the time I was running off to school and not thinking artistically.  I'm feeling artistic urges tingling again.  Music, painting, design, sewing, dance.  I officially have too many interests!  I guess that never goes away completely but it comes in waves, sometimes stronger than other times.

My hair is healthy again.  Monoi de Tahiti oil is the bomb, folks. Magical gardenias plucked by moonlight and soaked in coconut oil. Seriously. It wouldn't even look any better if unicorns made it themselves. If I did a before and after picture it would be a picture of a bale of hay and then a Pantene commercial. Ok, maybe not that bad but you get my drift. I like my hair again! Hooray.

My exam is in 2 weeks and that will be another big, huge checkmark on my list! Getting in that last bit of studying, especially Chinese medicine, which is delightful and confusing all at the same time.

Monoi De Tahiti and healing my hair

I have been rather obsessed with healing my poor hair lately, whom I have put through such terrible experiments that I feel quite bad about it all. I have dyed it back as closest to my original color as I could, which was a 3 step process that I had to meticulously research as my hair has been bleached and fried by a salon last summer when I was a model for them (awful experience, I won't go into the details... I should have walked out and them frying my hair was a lesson learned - big time!) Well it's pretty close to my natural color now, a med-dark golden blonde and I am so relieved, however, I have been doing deep conditioning treatments with coconut oil and rosemary for the past two weeks and it has made all the difference! Honestly, I can't believe it's done so much for my ends which I thought were beyond repair. Coconut oil is my hair holy grail! I promised my hair that I would only treat it well from now on and bless it with essential oils and lovely things only. My natural color is amazing actually... what was I thinking otherwise??


Well I was doing a bit of research on something called Argan oil and stumbled upon something else entirely, called Monoi De Tahiti - a Tahitian oil that consists of gardenia flowers soaked in coconut oil. Tahitian ladies use it on their skin and hair and apparently it smells amazing. My intuition practically yelled at me - GET IT NOW! So I placed an order, though I had never heard of it or smelled it before. Upon more research, ancient Tahitians use this oil in birth and death ceremonies and it's considered magical and sacred. I'm waiting on it in the post but I'm betting this stuff is amazing because just thinking about it is making my solar plexus all fluttery! I'm getting the feeling that yes, this oil will help my hair heal even more but there's something else to it. I once had a powerful experience with a blooming gardenia bush on a full moon. The smell was intoxicating, I felt like I was in a cloud of love and the gardenia bush told me to take one and wear it because "it would help me to heal my heart". I'm making realizations as I write this, no wonder I felt so drawn to Monoi De Tahiti!
I'm having some crazy powerful dreams lately, and I'm getting messages from a totem animal again, daily- in dreams and in waking life. I'll write more about that later. It's a story that's still being weaved and I'm trying to make sense of it all. I'm being brought back into this powerful current of awareness and magic. I truly feel like I'm dancing on a tightrope of worlds right now! It's a good feeling though, like veils are being lifted and balance is being restored inside of me once again.